I keep going back to imitation love

I had a great time with my best friend yesterday and many other times this week I've been hanging out and speaking on the phone with another good friend. In addition I've made calls to several people and started communicating with people I haven't spoken to in a long time.  Its been great, and I remember I told myself that I wouldn't have any expectations of that person, every time. But the problem is that I am going back to my old habits just as I've always done: Smoking, watching porn, buying sweets, etc. It is really ennoying me because I don't see how I can get to the point where I don't need those anymore. It still feels like I'm being drawn to it as the habit has been for a long time.

Anyone have ideas about this?

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Edited by DeathereX - 15 Jul 2011 at 4:09pm

Thank you for replying!

I am absolutely convinced that real love is the answer to fill the soul, absolutely.

I believe IF you are willing to let go of the old patterns of behavior

by telling the TRUTH about what you do before you engage in them that would be one way of disrupting the habitual use of them. Can you tell a bit more about this? I do tell the truth about myself gradually to people around me that I trust. I have been honest today about the fact that I am a lazy dude who dont really do much productive with my days, I dont bother to get a job right now, I just dont feel the motivation and I dont know quite when I will get that motivation.

Have you allowed Real Love to fill your soul?

 How often are youwatching the FREE On-line Seminar or the meditation in Module One?

That's one way to gauge your Real Love supply and eliminate the addiction

to Imitation Love.    I am trying to be more loving towards my friends and my father. My stepmother complained the other day that I hadnt been consistent with my assignment washing the stairs and I said I would look into that and improve it. After that she asked if it was possible that I did more around the house and said something like this: "I know you are very into things like doing whats right and wants to do the best for others, how would you like to do some more work around the house?" I then said: "I will do my assignments as I´ve promiced and if I will let you know if I can do something more." Then her reply became pretty obvious, she was disappointed because she had actually not made a request but a DEMAND in a very polite way to begin with. I told her that I am not going to do anything around the house to please anyone, I will do it by my own choice and if I feel I have the capacity for it.
She was really disappointed and it became really ockward between us. I do think it was great because she really needs to feel loved herself and she has always thought that earning the praise of others is very important. I told her that one should never earn the praise of others, and she replied that "she sure do like people much better if they do more things for her" implying that I should do more around the house so she would like me more. And this really made her confused as it seemed, so now she is kinda ignoring me. But it doesnt bother me, I told her the TRUTH about how I looked at her request. I wasnt mad or disappointed, I just pointed out the fact.

The truth is really helping me out here, and telling it to people NOT CARING about their approval of you is really given me the feeling that this is getting somewhere!

 How often are youwatching the FREE On-line Seminar or the meditation in Module One?

That's one way to gauge your Real Love supply and eliminate the addiction

to Imitation Love. I have just watched the whole 6 dvds from the seminar by Baer. It is really something. I will continue reading the workbook and keep studying the Real love in dating book, and a few other of the real love books that are waiting for me to read them.

Do you have a Coach, my friend?

Sometimes we need someoen to guide us through this process.

How often are you on Conference Calls?

That's another grand opportunity to fill that emptiness.
I would really like a coach, I am kinda wondering who to ask as I am still a little unsecure about who I should tell everything about myself to :P
I`ve been to one conferance call, last week actually. The sunday call with Engram. It was cool.
Thought I have been wondering if there is any possiblility to talk to anyone on skype. Just a skype call between two or more people. Is this something you do ? I would like to speak with someone every day if it was possible. On the forum it is more like one-way communication and it takes a while between people are able to answer back.
I would really like to discuss the principles, tell a few stories and know other peoples experiences and problems if anyone was interested.

Thank you so much

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